I keep saying I'll blog everyday i just been so lazy! we're going on a field trip tomorrow to Marin headlands. I applied to five colleges today, San Francisco, East Bay, Humboldt, Monterrey bay, and Sacramento state=)we'll just see what happens from then. This whole week have been nothing but drama, i swear but maybe i just don't "understand" and I'm not trying to sound sarcastic because maybe i don't. I don't know what's going to happen from now on, i mean we tried talking like nothing ever happened and it gets nowhere and of course i care because you are like my best guy friend. I just thought out of everybody you would understand how i feel...anyways on a happier note I can't wait for this weekend, rally on friday, homecoming game/dance on saturday and halloween sunday! I still haven't figured out what to wear for both sat/sun. November 11th is fall comp hyped up for that.
It's going to be crazy wow ever since my mom passed I've been going out non-stop, and yes, i do miss the feeling of being home all the time but I'm moving near cow palace in a month exactly, if there is anything in the world i hate it has to be that. So much fucking stress and I'll miss living by balboa and waking up late but that's okay I'll have a car in less than a month and my license in two=) damn I'm just going subject to subject, there's just too much on my mind lately.
On Saturday i went on a double date, we didn't even do anything and it was fun i haven't had pho in a while. And you know what i haven't had in a while? Those "feelings". He just make me happy in a weird way, and I been like this for awhile now. I just sometimes wonder if he feels the same way, i don't want to end up like a fool like i always end up looking. But I don't know ever since Sunday morning..I have a feeling it's different..only exception brah=)
goodnight ya'll until next time
hero heroine-boys like girls<3
