"When the lights go out, we'll be safe and sound"

About two weeks ago i found out something that possibly just will change my perspective of life in about a year, although i try don't not to think about it. I'm tryna be strong as possible. Senior year will not be easy for me i just know i gotta make it worth it. My summer's been alright tho the weather really sucks i can tell you that much. I can't wait till Julie comes to SF for a week. On Friday night, through the ears and talks i found out what the meaning of love was..Plain Crazy. No means do i know any great advice but really opinion. Relationships are just not my thing. As i watched herself drained in tears, why she is with this guy? When I simply said, it's what love does. But really is this what love is? Because if it is, would i put myself in this kind sort of risk? I took too many already and all i got to say is FNGM. I'm mean really? I mean wtf am i suppose to do? everybody says "don't look" and "wait" Fuck alla that, When the time is right set with a perfect fuckin "prince charming" i'll know. And right now nothings "right"...